Thursday, April 30, 2009

Psalm 73: Being Content with God

A Beautiful Braham Sunset-April 23rd, 2009

Two days ago, my little sister Jayme had the opportunity to pick a psalm for the day and she randomly chose Psalm 73, one of my favorite psalms. I had forgotten what a wonderful psalm it was, and I couldn't help but remember a journel entry I wrote about it two years ago:

"December 6th, 2007-Letters from the Heart
'But as for me, it is good to be near God' Psalm 73:28 NIV

Psalm 73 is a psalm of confession. The psalmist contritely admits how he has often envied the people of this world and wished he could have the 'joys' they possess. 'They have no struggles; their bodies are healthy and strong.' (verse 4)

I can relate to this man's heart. How frequently I find myself wishing I was like young ladies of this world. They do not have struggles with which I have to battle; they don't fight unpure thoughts. What problems do they possess?

But then, do they have a caring Father in Heaven to whom they may bring their problems? Does a normal young lady have the counsel and guidance of God's Word? Do they have the strength (God) I have?
In verses six through ten, the psalmist reveals the true nature of people who do not care for God. (Read)
I can say with the psalmist as he closes his prayer:
'Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you. But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of your deeds." (Psalm 73:27-28)

I just wanted to share this with you; be encouraged!
BTW: My mom is out of the hospital and feeling better on account of the prednisone she is on. Things are still unclear on what she has. I'll keep you posted; thanks for the prayers!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Trials Produce Patience

Will too much patience drive me crazy?

Thanks for all the birthday wishes and prayers for my Mom. That was so nice of you! Happy Birthday to Alyssa and Kathryn as well!

Some of my favorite verses to turn to during trials are James 1:2-4.

"My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing the testing of your faith produces patience, but let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." James 1:2-4 NKJV

I have found this verse is so true, especially now. Mom is back in the hospital; she was having worse problems yesterday, so our Pastor brought her into the emergency room for us (as none of us kids drive officially yet and Dad was at work). Today she is scheduled to have a "colonoscopy" (I think that's how you spell it) to see what's wrong with her. We hope and pray it's nothing serious!

With Mom gone, a lot of responsibility falls on me as I am the oldest girl of the house now (I am NOT having self-pity). It is PERFECT training for motherhood. Last night I made lasagna for dinner and, with Mom at the hospital, my younger siblings came to me with their hurts and thoughts. Helping them and listening to them really requires patience, especially when supper is late, I've splattered spaghetti sauce over my favorite shirt and jeans, and I am worried about Mom. Later in the evening we all kind of lost our patience, but earlier, I found it fufilling to assist them and to know my younger siblings trusted me.

Through this whole trial, I am learning patience is an essential quality for motherhood, and sacrificing is a large part of being a good sister and mother-in-training.

Patience is a virtue, and very important. My brother Caleb was just here asking about me doing some reading with him. I told him, "We'll see; wait until I'm done." He sighed, "I guess I have to wait." I smiled at Caleb and said, "Yep, that's patience." "What's patience?" he asked. "It's a virtue." "Oh."

Waiting and patience and perseverence all depend on each other. If we wait with patience, we will perseverence. Right now, we have to wait on the Lord to show us His perfect plan for our lives during this trial. Ben, Leesha, and I have made to commitment to "wait" for our future spouses. Caleb has to wait for me to read with him.

Once again I reminded of James: knowing the testing of your faith produces patience. Patience, what a "timely" lesson.

"Teach me, Lord, to wait."

Friday, April 10, 2009

What A Weird Week!

What a weird week!

On Friday of last week, Mom felt very sick. Her stomach area hurt and she couldn't figure out why. She was down and out for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday with horrible abdomenal pains. Dad finally took her to the doctor on Sunday afternoon and I fully expected her to be out that night. I was wrong. Mom remained in the hospital for about four days and she was dubbed the "mystery patient". It seemed she had a sac of fluid by her colon, or was it in the muscle? There were no definate answers.

The days without Mom were very odd indeed, but things seemed to run smoothly. Dad took two days off of work to be with Mom and us. It was SO comforting to know many people from church, relatives, and friends were praying for Mom and our family. The out-pouring of love was amazing. Pastor and Joanne were wonderful and SO supportive of our family.

My oldest sister stayed the night on Tuesday evening and was able to be home for most of my birthday. She was also able to pick up Mom on Wednesday. Thanks Whit!

Oh yes, it was my birthday-17! Here is a photo:

Well, I'd better be going. Just wanted to let you know I am still alive, and surviving, even through this weird week.

Happy Easter! He is risen, He is risen indeed, alleluia!