Wednesday, January 12, 2011

The Canvas of My Life

*NOTE: This blog was written on January 12th, 2011.

Our past three years have started with a funeral.

In January 2009, a young man from our church died from traumatic injuries suffered from a horrific car accident. We had the honor to play prelude music for his funeral. In January 2010, a older member from our church passed away unexpectedly. The summer before she had requested my brother Ben to sing for her funeral, because she loved his "deep, rich bass voice" and it gave her goosebumps. And, this morning we attended the funeral of a church member's sister. Such solemn reminders as we have begun each new year.

As I watched the funeral home workers roll the coffin down the aisle this morning, I couldn't help but think, "What will my funeral look like?" Glancing at the small crowd of mourners, I wondered, "Who will be at my funeral?" Listening to the sermon, I pondered, "What would be said of me?"

Every thought, action, word, or deed will leave a lasting impression on those who are directly or indirectly affected by it. What picture will my words and deeds paint? Will the figurative brushes I use be smooth and delicate, or ragged and coarse? Would the colors of the painting be light, complementary pastels? Bold, bright and rich? Or dark, mellow and cold? The images portrayed on the canvas of my life, Would they be pleasant to behold, stirring up hope and love, thrilling the viewer's eye and soul? Or would my life be depicted by dismal figures of pain, bitterness, and regret?

Would a pastor, standing sheepishly in the pulpit and staring at some scribbled sermon notes, have to say the common phrases, "Um, she was a good person. She loved people (I think), and people...ah...loved her" with the knowledge that it wasn't true? Would the handful of mourners recall the times when I spoke out of turn, acted unjustly or immorally, injured relationships, and failed to be a good ambassador for the Lord?

While I am on this earth, I have the opportunity to live life to the fullest. I will make mistakes, hurt people, and continue to sin. This is inevitable. But I want people to remember me for getting through the tough times and mistakes, saying "I'm sorry" and turning 180 degrees, and battling sin (not caving into it). I pray people would say with certainty, "Yes, she loved the Lord with all her heart, and she loved us as well."

How I can help ensure that? Well, by living life according to God's Word. May His legacy become mine as I strive to follow His ways. One day, when my body is put into the ground, my soul will be in the presence of His glory, singing praises to Him, and His legacy will live, hopefully, through the remembrance of a girl named Taylor-through the canvas of my life.


Friday, January 7, 2011

A Comment on Comments...

I love comments! In fact, I don't know anyone who doesn't enjoy comments. It always brightens my day when I find a comment you have written in response to my random writings; thank you!

One thing I enjoy about some blogs I have visited (some of which are your own) is the blogger's responses to comments; it adds such an interactive and welcoming feel to the whole blog-it's one of the differences of a dead blog and a live blog. (Kudos to you if you do this!) As a New Year's Resolution (looks like I'm adding another to my list already!), I resolve to respond to your input. If you have taken the time to comment, I can certainly take the time to jot down a response. Besides, it's fun! :)

Blessings on your day!



Wednesday, January 5, 2011

2011 New Year's Resolutions

Last night, I finally wrote down some resolutions for 2011. I already have my #1 New's Years Resolution, but, of course, I wanted to write more for this grand new year of opportunity.

I want to share them with you.

(Boy, am I scared!)

Now I really have to make sure I follow through with them. :)

So, without futher ado, here they are...

Tada! Doesn't it make me seem motivated?

Well, to be honest, some of my goals are on this list because of my lack of motivation. For example: "Stick to a daily schedule." Mmm, didn't I already write about that? But, as my graphic design business grows and I realize my full potential as a grown (and graduated!) daughter at home, I see more and more of my need to stick to a daily schedule. Starting today. Or tomorrow...maybe. Well, let's just say I need to examine my former schedule and customize it- again. (Oh, Taylor!)

Who knows? I may yet add more resolutions. Or I may never get them all accomplished because of circumstances or my (ah, em) lack of motivation. But I'm going to try, give it my best shot.

Look out 2011!



Monday, January 3, 2011

Happy New Year from The Garms!

#1 New Year's Resolution...

Looking back on my 2010 resolutions, I discovered I accomplished most of my goals, at least personal ones:

  • Start a daily journal
  • Redesign
  • Enter a few art contests
  • Purchase designing software
  • Get ears pierced
  • Work on mandolin
  • Learn swing fiddle
  • Learn "country"/Gospel piano

I accomplished all of them except entering art contests and learning swing fiddle. In some, I still have to continue my expansion of knowledge (i.e. mandolin and piano).

I did begin a daily (or nightly!) journal, writing pretty faithfully throughout the year of 2010...though I admit, I did miss a few days. :) This is something I am continuing into 2011, as I would sorely miss my "Journal Writing Sessions"! is redesigned-thanks to the purchasing of designing/web building software-but not completely finished and published (I guess I did not add that to my list of goals!). And yes, I actually got my ears pierced for my 18th birthday!

And, let's say my spiritual goals can still apply to this year as well! (Hopefully more about them later.)

But as I begin writing my resolutions for this new year, I know what my "absolutely-positutely" (FYI: that's a Garms phrase!) number one goal is...

#1: To know and love my Lord Jesus Christ more and more every day.

Here is Philippians 3:8-10, my verses for 2011:

"Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish in order that I may gain Christ, and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith-that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and may share in His sufferings, becoming like Him in His death."

This is my most important and "surpassing" goal for 2011, and should be for all of my life. Truly, this is what matters most.

Happy New Year!