What started as a quick search for a scribbled list turned into a long perusal of the heart of a young, growing preteen. From disjointed paragraphs in 2005 to sparse entries in 2010, I read about the confusion and blushes of early infatuations, the anger at those who hurt me deeply, the excitements of discovering a new genre of music, the lies I once believed about myself. I laughed at several of my childish rants, and shook my head at my immaturity and naivety in other entries.
When I came to some blank pages toward the end of the journal, I decided to write one more entry. I have learned numerous lessons since I began journaling, but there was one prominent lesson I had to address. The greatest lesson. And, since I don’t think I’m the only one learning this, I decided to share with you what I wrote:
Talk about an interesting read. Since 2005, this gal has been on an incredible journey. (Ugh, this journal is difficult to write in — and it makes my writing look pathetic. ) Rather embarrassing at times, colored with dreams and expectations, and mellowed by trials and heartaches, but overall, this journal is another record of God’s gracious and persistent work in my life — for His glory!
I see ways I have matured greatly since April 11th, 2005 — writing and style and is just one example — but I also notice besetting sins my heart easily falls into..."